“It meant nothing” does not make things better. Because if you cheated on me with someone you genuinely thought was your soulmate, which made you realize I wasn’t, then I can’t truly be that mad at you for pursuing that assuming I genuinely care about your life happiness, which I do. But if you cheated on me with a random girl you met at a bar, who you had no intention of seeing again and who you’d never want a future with and didn’t even find attractive, that’s just a clear cut case of me not being enough for you.
If you really do love me, you wouldn’t have even put yourself in that position. And if you still think you do, know that’s not the type of love I deserve. Your apologies are empty and so are were your promises. Why did I think you’d be any different for me?
"I’m sorry" - I know you are, but maybe you should have thought of that before you cheated. I don’t care how sorry you are, it loses its meaning after you’ve heard it too many times.
“I was being stupid” or “I was drunk” - yeah, I know you were. Being drunk is not an excuse. Just being stupid or “just making a mistake” are not excuses. You knew what you were saying.
“You’re amazing” - you bet your sweet ass I am, but that doesn’t get you off the hook. If you knew I was so amazing this whole time, why did you cheat?
“I want to earn your trust back” - so did every other guy who cheated on me before you. And guess how many of them earned my trust back? None.
“I love you” - yeah, that’s great. I love you too, but the difference between my love for you and your love for me is that I would never cheat on me. Maybe my love for you is stronger.
I’m just tired and sad and angry and a total mess right now.
